Peace of mind equals no inspiration
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It seems like I get more inspired when I’m sad, troubled or depressed. That can’t be good. Happiness should be the biggest inspiration, right? But I have a theory. The thing is that, you get sad, troubled, or depressed, when you have too much spare time in your hands. If you are busy, or you have frequent activities to keep your mind occupied your brain stays away from the dark side, at least until your next period comes (Are you a man? Never mind, you’ll never know).
If you know me, or if you start reading old posts, you will notice that the darkest time in my life was last summer. I was unemployed, heart broken, and broken as well, as in no-money- at-all bankrupt. I think I got to the point where I needed professional help, but I refused to go and seek for it. I’m sorry and forever grateful with the friends and family that helped me go trough that rough path (You know who).
Things in my life improved and I have been on a rollercoaster of emotions ever since. As any normal person, I think. But nothing has been as difficult as those gloomy times. This summer has been totally different. I know, I know, summer its not over yet, and you can not get anything for granted, but I know the things that happen to me last year won’t come over to haunt me again. I am wiser now, I am prepared, but most of all, I am stronger than last year me.
This week was kind of eventful. That’s why, after almost a month with no posting at all I decided to sit and analyze what I experienced in the past days. I learned a lot about people and myself. I discovered that I, as many people have told me, am kind of naive, but I'm certainly not stupid. I tried to achieve “world peace” and I got war in return. I don’t mind, it had to happen that way. I found out that truth and secrets always find their way out. I learned that without wanting, trying, or expecting, you eventually get to see people’s true colors. It took almost a year for lie to be exposed, but when it finally surfaced, it helped me put the pieces of this puzzle called friendship in the correct place.
In conclusion, friends are people, people are not perfect. You have a lifetime to discover which ones are worthy and which ones are not… so worthy. Either way, you’ll have to take the risk and trust to find out. But, as any other thing in life, follow your instincts. Your mind knows better that your heart sometimes, but your instincts never lie; we just don’t listen as often as we should.
